DO NOT READ THIS!! SHITTY GRAMMAR AND IDEOLOGY WARNING!! THIS IS ANOTHER ONE OF THOSE NEUROTIC BABBLINGS I DO
When it comes to hopes and dreams. It’s really hard to accept the distance between possibility and impossibility. You wish for it to be in the realm of possibility. So that you can work hard and finally reach it. But not every dream can be attainable through effort. You may try your best but fail to reach it. You may invest countless hours of your time but in the end, it is time spent gaining the unattainable. Like Ouraborus infinitely looping to catch a tail that will forever be a step ahead. No matter how many steps forward you take. Giving up on a dream is okay. But living in regret for what you could not achieve. Even if it was unattainable from the start. People tend to blame themselves for what they cannot do.
It’s hard to determine what’s possible and what’s not. Sometimes the difference between the two isn’t something that can be seen through the naked eye. You need to experience it to find out. The even harder thing to figure out is the difference between a goal that you can achieve if you held on to it and goals that cannot be achieved no matter how long you hold on. A very fine line differentiates the two. But both require countless failures to be experienced to be identified.
When it comes to dreams in the realm of possibility. Should you influence another to follow such a dream as well? Looking back at a past failure they may feel a sense of fear. Making them defenceless in front of the walls that need to be claimed to make it a reality. It’s really hard to decide if you should influence another person to climb such a path. Will it be the best for them? Could it be that they are happy the way they are? Will they forever regret not trying to fly even if their wings have been clipped? More importantly. How should you even look at it?
Say you’re a sparrow who doesn’t know how to fly. You tried very hard in the past to flap your wings as hard as possible to take flight. But to no avail. Should you keep trying? Should you keep flapping your wings until you emerge from the murky depths of the gravity that holds you? Or should you stay with the ground folk and get to know them? Accepting that flight is not for you. You may even enjoy having your feet be pulled by the forces beneath your feet that you may never conquer. Will you one day look up at the sky and regret the winds you could have flown with? You may never forget the day you decided to stay on the ground like a tattoo of regret. Etched into your skin to forever remind you of a string you never followed in the fabric of life. Or will you forget to look up at the sky? Growing more and more impassive of the hopes and dreams you used to harbour.
The show is about finding hope. Without hope. People take different parts to fill their place. Some like Tachibana try to fill it out with apathy while some like kondo tell themselves that this is for the better. No matter how try to down that void within. The regret still exists. Because losing hope isn’t simply shit about losing a future. It’s also about losing friends and anyone and anything that’s connected to it. However, having a relenting hope it’s detrimental too. Kondo’s wife left him because he focused his attention more on it than on her. Simply having hope doesn’t always cut it. Sometimes, those promises we make to ourselves push aside things we adore. But when it comes down to it. You’ve gotta put it straight. You need to decide which will make you happy more and wh device you will regret more.
Like how Bloom Into You made me think long and hard about the identity of a person or the multiple faucets of identity a person can have. After the rain made me think about what it means to have and lose hope